Wordless Wednesday #3..Alhamdulillah..bro WAM kembali sihat....

Last week..



after 5 days...high fever..

 p/s: Alhamdulillah...Bro WAM kembali aktif n cergas..jk tidak sepanjang 5 hari tue..terbaring tanpa semangat utk merangkak n berguling2 mencari dinding utk bangun...sungguh sedih sgt2 ms tue..tp Alhamdulillah..sudah kembali cergas...
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More than 2 month...

Salam...its about more than 2 month..i cant hv enough n suitable time to update my blog...quite a long time...emmm..last month I going back to Msia...just for the emergency n not planned...the ticket for the emergency flight is quite expensive..bought 1day before I'm going back..Since, in Malaysia I had a lot thing to do + the internet at my hometown was not as fast as here..so..i'm became quite lazy to update my blog..even everyday i online to spoke with my hubby early in the morning..

emm..back to the topic...its about more than 2 month..my mom..already leave me n my family...Allah love her very much...(refer to the saddest story upon Syawal ). She leave me on 12 September 2010 which is 3rd Syawal..the time she passed away at 3.05pm...and for the time being.i'm still in my way to going back...where on that time I with my daughter were boarding to the Kuala Lumpur from the Incheon Airport...emm..I cant expressed that time...I really upset on that..my hope for the coming back is to see her n help her to recovered from her injured...but...All have been disuratkan olehNYA..I cant help her for the last time...mungkin inilah suratan nya..which is very tough for me..for all my life...even now..i still feel regret on this... And  this is the most important reason...why I dont have any strength to update my blog or to do others things...because I'm really2 do know what to do..n i need some times to recovered from this situation...but its so hard..

WAQ with her bag..prepared for check in..@Fukuoka Airport



Altaf cant controlled...@ Incheon Airport

Em..I hope it will not be happen again...but truly speaking...sblm my mon meninggal..i always dream her..almost every night...n the last 3 days before she passed away...i had a dream where she passed away before sempat saya jumpa n ckp dgn dia....n the dreamt almost the same for the 3 days before..lastly..mmg benar..itulah takdirnya...mmg sy xsmpt jumpe n ckp dgn ibu sblm dia pergi...When I reached airport..my aunt n uncle fetch me...but when I ask about my mom...she didnt told anything...but she said..

"mcm tue la"...they fetch me n terus driving to Melaka..in the car..they all never said anything when i ask about the condition now..they just..said..still the same...When I reached at my home gate...I saw ramai sgt2 org pki bj melayu n bersongkok..kat luar rumah..n rumah terang benderang...padahal on that time dh kul 12tgh mlm...n I asked again..then..I asked about my mom to my aunt..but she only said "sabar ye, angah"..i cant control my emotion on this situation...i dont have any strength at that time..n feel all my life become down..i'm lying on that car..n my daughter at that time...crying n crying...I just praise to Allah for the strength and wake up to see jenazah my mom yg telah selamat dimandi n disolatkan hanya tunggu saya blk je....Alhamdulillah..Allah give me that strength..n for the whole night before tggu esok utk dikebumikan..I with my sister n brother recite the Al-Quran..nAlhamdulillah..I have khatam the Al-Quran for my mom...At that time...my daughter was with my cousin n sister..saya xfikir pun ttg anak n ape2 yg lain..the important is what can I do for my mom..for the last time...my think is my mom...mmg xsmpt nk fikir sape2 pun even to tell my hubby yg kami dh slmt smpi pun xsmpt juga...all in uncontrolled.....i think if u r in my situation u re also do the same,right?which is i'm so surprised..n regret.. Early in the morning...a lot of my mom n father frens yg duk jauh nun kat utara n mahupun di pantai timur...dtg melawat kami..n a lot of people recite the Al-Quran for my mom..around 9am,my mom disembahyangkan sekali lagi sebelum dikebumikan..utk kali terakhir..I with my youngest sister solat jenazah utk my mom..n my praise she will be calm there..





Actually, i'm so tired on that day...after booked a ticket for going home till 3.00am...n kemas sume brg2 yg nk bw blk..n my flight was at 10.30am...but i must be at the Fukuoka Airport at 8.30am due to I hv to do a re-entry permit..n my WAQ..buat perangai dia on that day...sbb kene kejutkan awl utk mandi n siap2...n kurang tido...till after my mom dikebumikan brla rasa sgt2 penat..dan sgt2 lapar sbb xmkn hmpr satu hari...+ br terfikir yg sy ada baby yg kat dlm perut yg msh lapar..Alhamdulillah,Allah telah beri sepenuh kekuatan utk lakukan semua ini...Thank you Allah...

And for the whole 1 n half month..stayed in Malaysia..A lot things to do..I need to recover my father which is so sad, my youngest brother who along with my mom during the accident n also myself...I also have to help my father to settle all my mom work "as she as a teacher"..n also about the car, insurance,wasiat,bank n etc...that's all need a lot of document...I also try to do the best..which try to be like my mom do..as she at home...just like..tlg buat segala keje2 rumah..n try to teach my youngest brother to do keje2 rumah yg biasa...mcm msk nasi,kemas umah,sapu rumah, bsh bj..n etc...Alhamdulillah..since I'm going back to japan..he can manage to do that things...n kdg2 I have to remember his..to keep it continuously...

Altaf with her bassinet.

Eeemm...I hope I can recover all  my emotion n feeling very soon..n my promise to my  late mom...I will be a good daughter n sister, and excellent wife n mother...InsyaAllah...I will bring all ur taught for the whole my life..Luv u mom forever n ever...;)

I miss her very much....

p/s: thanks a lot to my hubby...fahami situasi ini.

gOoD NeWs Vs baD nEws?

Erm..this entry will be in Malay ye..due to tgh melayan hati yg sedih or gembira..xtahu nk kate perasaan skang...
Erm ni luahan hati..

Alhamdulillah...last week dpt tahu berita gembira yang best..sy BOLEH mempercepatkan sambung belajar..pada bln depan..bestnya...;)Prof..siap dh bgtau..ape tajuk yg akan kuar ms pekse..so..just focus..on the subtopic..given...he also..give a hand..if i need some help..with the topic...Really..best..dpt Prof..mcm ni...;)Firstly...mule2 planning nk msk bln 10..then..bile dpt tahu boleh msk awal...teringin pulak..nk masuk awl..boleh abis cepatkan...huhuhu...sblm ni risau mengenai scholar...Alhamdulillah...skang scholar dh xde problemdah...Prof..siap nakbuatkan recommendation letter utk ku dpt scholar...huhuhuhu...suke sangat222;)rasa mcm susah je nk dpt Prof mcm nie..dh lah sibuk dgn xtvt n management..lg pula dia coordinator Math for Industry...n also dekan of Faculty of Maths..tp hv a time to see me..n follow up my progress...

Waiting for the Prof. Masato Wakayama.

In front of the Faculty of Mathematics

n setelah..berbincang dgn en hubby..dia berbesar hati memberiku sambung lbh awl..kate dia..bgs jugak tue...n sy pun sepakat nk amik bln7 msk as a research students...n now..sy prepare on it...
buat2 cbuk bljr blk silibus yg dh tggl lame...;)susah jugak nk recall...

n dis week....br sy perasan dh dkt 1bln lbh xdtg period...n dlm hati..terpk..xkan pregnant kot..altaf kecil lagi..br 8bln..n utkmenyedapkan hati..mungkin..hormon kot..yela..sejak akhir2 nie..cbuk ckit..pk..mcmane kalo dh stat blj..nk hntr altaf kat nursery mn...survey2 nursery....ty2 sensei nihongo.kat mn nursery ok..n murah..

Altaf @ 8 month with her frens..

n br semalam..en hubby kate better check la..takut pregnant kot..then...blk dr sek..en hubby pun membeli pregnancy test tue....mahal btl..dkt RM27++++....kalo dulu kat Malaysia..boleh dpt free je kat klinik...
Then...smlm jugak en hubby blk awl utk memberi pregnancy test tu..n disurhu check oleh en hubby secepat mungkin...wpun..sy ms tue mcm xde hati je nak check..sbb malas...n takut nk tgk result die...;(

Lastly, setelah..dipaksa beberapa kali..n utk menghargai apa yg en hubby beli..sy pun gi la..check....ya Allah....+ve la!!!!n terus tunjuk pd en hubby..sbb en hubby tue xpernah tgk pun bende tue sblm ni..sbb ms check nk tahu pregnant altaf dulu...en hubby xde di sisi..outstation....
Itulah..ayat yg pertama terpacul keluar dr mulut sy...n sy rs mcm kesian sgt2..kat altaf..die ms kecilg..die dah la fully breastfeed..n sy still continue EBM kat die...bile tgk muke dia..rs mcm nk nangis je..;(dgn dia yg xtahu ape2 lagi....

n kemudian...yg membuntukan hati n fikiran ni...mcmane ni?dh nk smbg dh...Prof pun dh tahu..sy dh bersedia...n tgh prepare pun..mcmane nie...ty en hubby..die kate..pklah..yg mn terbaik utk sy.....senangnya..en hubby berkata2....erm..sedihlah..sy memang nk sangat sambung....n bile tahu pregnant ni rs mcmane ye...sbb kat cn..kalo hntr ank mesti 3/4bln ke atas..xleh kurang dr tue..mcmane ni?

en hubby yg sentiasa beri sokongan.;)

Nie yang membuntukan kepala ni...hati n sambung..tp dlm ms yg sama..bile tahu pregnant..anak mcm susah nk hntr nursery..n terpk dgn ank yg kecil2 lg...rs mcm susah nak 'cope' je...

Ya Allah..tlglah..ku berikan petunjuk yang terbaik untuk diri dan keluargaku...
kepada kawan2 ku...blogger2..tlg bgtau sy ape yg perlu sy perlu buat?tlgla..bg suggestion utk ku...demi yang terbaik utk ku....

Did we still have parents like this?

What happen to all human being nowadays? Day a day seems a lot of news about child abuse..erm..pity of them...  ;( how dare people like this still live happily in this peace world!!!!! really make mad...

We should do something before its become more serious!!!
As a parent, we should love our kids more than other things...we should show a good attitude and become a role model to our kids..
Important their upbringing...its for their future....erm..kids is a like a 'white cloth' we as aparent will pattern its...erm...speechless...regardless..

PETALING JAYA: The couple detained over the suspected abuse of a three-year-old child have tested positive for the synthetic party drug syabu.

The child’s 27-year-old stepfather and 24-year-old mother are being remanded until April 20. Police, however, did not find any drugs in their Bukit Serdang home.

                                In custody: Jasmine’s stepfather and mother have been remanded.

Meanwhile, initial findings of a post-mortem conducted at the Serdang Hospital revealed that Jasmine Lee’s body was covered with more than 60 injury marks – indicating that she may have been tortured.

Federal CID director Commissioner Datuk Seri Bakri Zinin said the bruises were mostly concentrated on Jasmine’s body and head and were the result of blunt force trauma.

“We do not want to speculate, but it is disturbing to find so many injuries on the poor child,” he said.

Comm Bakri said police were still waiting for the full post-mortem report to ascertain the actual cause of death.

Subang Jaya police chief Asst Comm Zainal Rashid said the initial post-mortem report also showed that the girl died of lobar pneumonia, a type of infection that affects a large and continuous area of the lung lobe.

It is learnt that the girl had been under the care of a foster family in Sentul since her birth until up to over a month ago.

Torture victim?: Jasmine had more than 60 injury marks on her body, according to an early post-mortem report.

The stepfather was arrested by police soon after the girl was taken to Poliklinik Komuniti Seri Kembangan at 7.45am on Wednesday. She was pronounced dead while being examined.

The doctor called in the police after the stepfather could not explain how the girl had suffered more than 30 bruises.

The former mechanic had taken the girl to the clinic after he found her unconscious in their apartment unit.

sumber: the star online

How's your opinion? I think we should take a serious action..?should we?

whrilwind 2009!

For all my frens...this entry is jus to end of the year...em..mostly end of this year..i start to create my own blog..based on my bored due to confinement period after 1st birth and further to school holiday..hopeful u can help me to learn n to become the cantik...cutest..n cuteeesssst blog..with a lot of information on how to do that...

okay...back to the topic...(suke sgt2 menyimpang kalo nk cite tue...pukul kan br tahu tgn nie...huhuh..)for 2009..this is the pretty much an annus horribulus where the downturn in the global eco meant loss of jobs...majority..where my renter also hv to quit from their work.., homes and entire life savings..Echoing this drastic situation in finance..me also is hard to find my scholar to further after my employer...so byk songeh22...kali 28..hv to be a seniority teacher...about 3 years working experience but its not confirm u can got the scholar...after of all,i decide to apply private scholar..where when i search from JASSO they are a lot of scholar that i can apply....(mmg byk songeh2 kali 28 for MOE)...

Beside, for Malaysia n world..the drastic situation in finance was chaos in enviorment as well..where we have to cope with the big disasters that struck as a result of a globe warming n worldwide pandemic in the form of AH1N1....(yup...kesannye sgguh terasa)...on that period i'm still pregnant..i'm very worried and obssesed about that H1N1..i eat a lot of supplement after heard day after day that many of the death are pregnant women...i eat spirulina...E500 by Elken...beside supplement from the clinic.. until my weight become n become bigger...I alos buy sanitizer where i bring along wherever I go...(its always in my hand bag.). I'm also remind to all my student who is not feeling well dont ever2 close to me...(kdg2...rs kejam jugak......tp i have to due to my school hv suppected h1n1.. ). Despite, high hopes for our leaders, not only was widespread disunity but corruption also rear its ugly head...(agree wit this tak?)


Yet being optimist that we mostly are, we firmly believe that things will take a turn for the better in 2010...(very222222222...kali28...hope..)....

Hope this 2010....Being a servant of Allah,hope i more closer to HIM...Islam is a way of my life, as a wife to my loving husband...i hope i can be a good, loyal n  understanding wife..as a solehah daughter to my beloved mum n dad n siblings, as a dedicate teacher to my innocent students and as a Malaysians,I hope this peace will be continuosly..

Ulimately, i can be thankful for what i have and lookforward with hope to a brand new day....Happy New Year......